I am the type of girl who can only like a guy once she gets to know him, so that makes the initial stages of dating harder for me. Especially online.
Even if I manage to find a guy whose pictures interest me, I can't keep the conversation going for more than a couple of messages. Which is odd, because I am a very talkative person who is always making people laugh. Unfortunately, none of the people who find me entertaining can pee standing up. So this means that unless I want to start playing for the other team, I need to find a way to keep my interactions with guys interesting.
Yesterday I met a guy online who I thought would be my first prospect. I saw his profile, thought he was interesting, so I sent him a message. He messaged me back saying that he had seen my profile and was just about to message me, and that he had noticed we like the same kind of music and both have a fondness for Japanese Manga. I got all excited thinking this was going somewhere. So since he asked for more info about me, I wrote back and told him more about me. Very basic stuff. Then I asked to know more about him.
He never replied.
Oh, he logged on for quite some time, he just didn't write me back. But the men whose profile pic are of them shirtless in front of a mirror whilst holding a bottle of Grey Goose and smiling just seem to keep on writing whether I reply or not. But where are the ones that I don't want to hit with my giant Guess handbag? They do a disappearing act, more often than not.
In hindsight, I think maybe I shouldn't have answered his question with a list of interests and info about me. I thought that was what he was asking for, but maybe it doesn't leave much room for conversation? Maybe it's boring? And maybe when it was his turn to write about himself, he couldn't think of anything to say? I know I had a hard time thinking of things, especially when the web site makes you put nearly everything there is to know about you at a glance on your profile. It's like, what more can you say?
I could either try a different approach next time, or just realize that every time I try to online date I have the same problem - starting a conversation or keeping it going. So I have decided to eliminate online dating as a tool in my search.
I have also decided to try to avoid going on conventional dates. They are awkward, and they usually consist of men complaining about money. They don't want to pay for the event, they think it's overpriced, they don't want to tip, they don't want to pay to park (even if they aren't paying for the event), and they don't want to spend gas money to come into the city from the suburbs.
Once someone starts complaining, it puts me in a bad mood. Especially when I'm nervous on first dates as it is, and they have probably shown up for the date being 5'6 when I'm 5'10 barefoot. So not only do I feel like a giant overgrown science project, I also feel like I've roped them into something inconvenient. After an hour or two I'm usually ecstatic to just get away from them.
I've decided that since men can't be relied upon to pay for anything without complaining, I shouldn't even allow it. From now on I will pay for all of my own things on events. But I can hardly call something I paid for a "date." That, to me, is a friend outing. If there comes a time when things are going well with a guy and he expresses an interest in going on a real date, I'll handle that at that time. But I'm sick of feeling guilty because they sprung for dinner, complained about it and mentioned how their rent is due the next day, and then it didn't work out between us.
I'm also sick of hearing guys complain that women use them for free meals knowing that they're not going to go out with them again. How do they know they didn't just act like a douchebag on the date, thus making the woman not want to go out again? That's usually what happens to me! But no, they can't conceive that it could have been their bad behavior, the woman must be a golddigger! Newsflash - the $10-$20 meal you bought is not that coveted nor is it unattainable without a man! The day that I have to put up with someone I don't like just to get a cheeseburger will be the day life becomes meaningless, and I decide to just end it all, thank you very much.
Anyway, if I'm not going to go online looking to meet guys and I'm not going to seek out conventional dates, what am I going to do?
I am going to seek to build a social network.
I have joined several Meetup groups that will provide opportunities for a wide array of social interactions. I am also hopefully starting a new job soon where I will work with the public. My goal will be to meet guys and practice socializing with them. Find out what kind of conversations they find interesting, and find out what type of guy I'm really looking for at this stage in my life. Then perhaps I can move into a dating scenario with someone I find compatible after knowing them for awhile and becoming comfortable with them.
All of this is subject to change, but that's the goal as of today. I'll keep you posted!